Friday, February 18, 2011
Thursday, February 10, 2011
We knew instantly that our daughter was in India. We left the consultation with the fertility specialist, a meeting that should have devastated any young couple wishing for a child. God met us in that moment and gave us the gift of hope. There are few things in my life that I’ve been more certain of, but as we left through the waiting room littered with weary-faced couples, I knew beyond a shadow of a doubt that our child was waiting for us halfway around the world.
For those of you who have not been through the adoption process, let me just tell you, the wait to bring a child into your home can be excruciating. It seems as though the average person spends a great deal of their day waiting on this or that. But what if that waiting is the wait for a child? What if days turn into weeks, weeks turn into months and months into years? The phrases, “God’s timing is perfect” and “God knows what He’s doing” are so easy to say, yet so hard to live.
Our 2 ½ year journey to our daughter would forever change my relationship with God. When you wait for something so special, so life changing, you learn to lean on God in ways that you might not have before. One of my favorite Bible verses has always been, “Draw near to God and He will draw near to you.” (James 4:8) The closeness that I felt while walking with God through the adoption process is nearly indescribable. He continued to meet us where we were in every situation. Fear of the unknown was met with peace. Crisis was met with reassurance and pain was met with comfort. I’m thankful for the wait. It reminded me that God not only promises to go before us, but He also longs to walk beside.
Let me just tell you, God’s timing IS perfect and He does knows exactly what He’s doing. Faith, hope and love have taken on a new life for me. I tend to see those words differently now. Faith looks like walking in stride with the Father, no matter how difficult the situation. Hope looks like the realization that God has something planned for us that is so much greater than what we could have planned for ourselves. Love, our love for God and His for us, looks like a little girl with jet black hair that we held for the first time in an orphanage in India.
Wednesday, October 20, 2010
This summer, we packed up and headed to Tulsa, OK for Dillon International's annual India Heritage Camp. It wasn't a first for us...Dustin and I have been attending since we started the process to adopt Mia. In fact, one of the reasons we chose Dillon as our adoption agency was because they offered a heritage camp. Being cared for before, during and after our adoption sounded like a pretty good thing. Who wouldn't want the option to participate in that, right?
Monday, August 16, 2010
Monday, July 26, 2010
Disclaimer...I don't know anything about the organization listed at the end of this video.
Selected text from Go!! Jackie Pullinger
Thursday, May 13, 2010
Forever Mine, Forever More: An Adoption Lullabyby Angie Tucker
Before you came home,
I spoke words to you in the air,
And the wind swept them up,
As if light as a prayer.
Over steep mountains,
Across oceans blue,
It traveled to bring
My message to you.
As the warm wind tumbled
Through tall summer trees,
The leaves clapped & applauded
As if to agree.
For the wind told the trees
Part of my message to you,
“You are loved, you are loved,”
So simple, so true.
You are loved, you are loved.
When the wind traveled
Across the wide open sea,
It whispered part of
The message from me.
As crested waves crashed
Like kisses on the shore,
They revealed what they were told,
“You’re adored, you’re adored.”
You’re adored, you’re adored.
The evening starts burst
With glimmering delight
When they caught word
Of the message in flight.
Well, the moon came around
To see what was the matter,
The stars sparkled as they whispered
When through a tiny window
The wind swirled around
And tickled your cheek.
As you drifted to sleep,
The wind whispered in your ear,
Words sweet as a wish,
As true as a prayer.
And now that I’m holding you,
So close and tight,
I’ll whisper my message,
The wind delivered that night.
Listen close - you can hear it,
As you’ve heard it before.
“You are loved, you are adored,
Forever mine, forever more.”
“You are loved, you are adored,
Forever mine, forever more.”
Wednesday, May 12, 2010
Goodness, I love these shirts! Above you will see the male shirt...by the way, you can pick your country. She has a large list of countries, and if you don't see the country you are adopting from you can name the shirt! If you are interested in raising money for your adoption, you can contact Kari at firstname.lastname@example.org.
Monday, April 19, 2010
Last month I had the opportunity to be a part of a special weekend. To raise money for the LUKA International Foundation and their work in Zambia, the LUKA board hosted Dr. Inonge Mbikusita-Lewanika, Ambassador of the Republic of Zambia to the United States of America. She spoke at our Zambia auction and helped make the evening spectacular. One of the items up for bid was a huge painting by artist Jerrod Smith. It was amazing and the pic I post doesn't even come close to doing it justice!
Anyway, that's the best I could do with my iPhone. I didn't win the bid and have finally stopped shedding tears about it! :o) By the way, Debbi M., if you are reading this, I may need to come over and visit my painting soon! ;o) With all joking aside, it was truly an amazing weekend. Oh, and come to find out, Jerrod Smith (the artist) is my aunt Debi's cousin! Crazy!
Friday, April 9, 2010
Thursday, March 18, 2010
Hello Blog. It's been awhile. There's been a lot going on lately. Let me fill you in. I could simplify...but where's the fun in that?!
So the story begins with the stopping of our second adoption last fall. It was painful, I mean really painful. The hopes, the planning, the dreaming...was all gone. It sounds strange, but the only thing that may be close to it is a miscarriage. The loss of a child - before you've even met. I was in mourning for a while, and I still mourn from time to time -- but, as in all situations that you can't control, we must move forward and have faith that God's timing is perfect and that He has a plan. Although I cannot see...I can trust...and although I cannot have my desires, I can hold to my faith.
And my faith has brought me here...
I am a great believer in the thought that there are no coincidences with God - always have been, always will be. For several years now, I have felt a strong urge to promote adoption and help the most vulnerable of our society...the orphans. I did an adoption blog for Mia's adoption & an orphan awareness video, I made a few orphanage connections in India, but just wasn't sure what to do. I DID know that I should take the energy I would have directed towards our adoption and focus it on something else. For more direction, I decided to schedule a meeting with my pastor. When we met with him, I shared my desires and asked for his direction on where to go next. Jon, our amazing pastor (we love that man so much!) said that just 2 days before I asked to meet with him, he had asked the council to pray that someone would come forward to help promote a child sponsorship program in Zambia (our church is partnering with the country of Zambia for the next decade). I went to Pastor Jon thinking about how to start an orphan care ministry in our church and ended up being asked to help lay the groundwork for a child sponsorship program. I am beyond thrilled! I'll be working with a great group of people to aid the children of Zambia.
So now is the scary part...moving from IDEATION to ACTION. I told God of my desires. He listened. He guided. So Africa it is.
Tuesday, January 5, 2010
Emy loves Mia...
and Mia loves Emy...
My sweet girls.
The drift of snow outside the girls' playroom window...
Here are the girls right before we left to see The Princess and the Frog...tutus and all! I've been wondering when Disney would get around to creating a dark skinned princess. Well, they finally did it & the movie was pretty good. According to Mia, the best part of the movie was the lightning bug...according to Emy, the best part of the movie was the popcorn!
The girls and their grampa in the princess tent!
I just watched this again with my girls and I wanted to share one of the songs from the movie. This is a remake of the Shirley Temple movie. If for some reason you don't know the story, it's about a girl who leaves India to go to a girls school because her father is being sent off to war (her mother has passed). While there, they get word that her father has died in battle and she is forced to work at the school and serve the other girls. She escapes the harshness of her new reality by telling the other girls stories of India. The remake is a great movie and I nearly cry every time I watch it. If you have kids and haven't seen the movie yet, go rent it! Here's the movie's original trailer and here's a song from the movie:
Friday, January 1, 2010
Thursday, December 24, 2009
Awww...such a pleasant finish (compared to last year's experience).
She asked Santa for make-up. Yah. :I And so it begins....
Well, Merry Christmas everyone! This is a song from Natalie Grant called "I Believe". The quality is not great, but it's a wonderful song. It's powerful, even though she's only accompanied by a piano in this version.
I watched this for the first time in it's entirety with Dustin and the girls this year. A Charlie Brown Christmas...can't beat this part...
Dustin, Angie, Mia & Emy